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#138. I need time.

Thursday, November 12, 2009 | 2:06 PM | 0 comments| add a comment

It's already been 4 days, and I still feel the sting of the disappointment over the streaming results. Now, it seems like my future is gone. Appeal? No hope already lah. 67% also rejected already, they see 66% blink also wont blink their eye. No choice, 3e4 then 3e4 lor. Now do anything no use already isn't it?

Even those people who didn't study much got into the same class as me. Or those who didn't study as much got into classes like e1. They only stream us into who can do better for Math/Sci then can go top 3 classes. Don't care about level pos, improvements from last year all these. Unfair leh. And now e3 suddenly A math compulsory. Means just 4% more! Tsk. I really don't want to go e4 -.- REALLY DON'T WANT, cos I don't think the subjects are useful at all. It's like I work so hard for all subjects, last time math always fail, like 30%. (Don't believe see my report book.) Then now, get till 66%, still get into this kinda class.. POA, F&N, combi sci. No pure humans. Just because of one subject. Just because of 4%.

If like that then work so hard for Chinese/History/Literature for what? I just need to pass everything and then get 80% for both Math & Sci then can go e1 already. I'm right to say that right. Cos of Amath & Pure sci lor. Then just anyhow, never give e4 at least pure humans. Each pupil does well in different subj's right, then why so biased over math & sci. Even if it's just a few percent away, appeals also all rejected.

Even though I smile and laugh like mad, sometimes you guys need to give me space to cry too. Seriously when Amelia came to tell me that I got into e4. So many things passed through my mind. Now, I regret so much. It's my own fault, ofcourse. I knew it that I CMI.

Haiz, people say make the best out of what I have now. God gave everyone equal days and equal time to study for the same papers. Everyone got back the results they deserve, it's fated. I'll make the best out of it.